--More like--what I said. [she sniffs, her shoulders quietly shaking.]
I was wrong. I kept confusing him with Luke..the Luke I was supposed to marry. But he wasn't..that Luke had been gone for..so long. I wasn't validating who he was--and it hurt him. Out of all the people--the one person who should have accepted him, who should have understood--and I didn't. I hurt him so badly, Tear..[she bit back a sob]
And yet I cannot let him go. This is..a chance I will never recieve again. I asked him if he..wanted to start over. And he--he said yes. And we talked--he even smiled at me.
To think that--if I had done this before--his..--[she swallows] If I had done this before he had died--I wonder if he could have felt any sort of happiness. I should be happy--I think a part of me is but..--still to let go.
It seems you and I--have had to let go of many things on this journey, haven't we?
[February 12th Early evening]
I was wrong. I kept confusing him with Luke..the Luke I was supposed to marry. But he wasn't..that Luke had been gone for..so long. I wasn't validating who he was--and it hurt him. Out of all the people--the one person who should have accepted him, who should have understood--and I didn't. I hurt him so badly, Tear..[she bit back a sob]
And yet I cannot let him go. This is..a chance I will never recieve again. I asked him if he..wanted to start over. And he--he said yes. And we talked--he even smiled at me.
To think that--if I had done this before--his..--[she swallows]
If I had done this before he had died--I wonder if he could have felt any sort of happiness. I should be happy--I think a part of me is but..--still to let go.
It seems you and I--have had to let go of many things on this journey, haven't we?